Kalau dengar cerita dari mulut orang lain, boleh jadi cerita tu berubah ubah struktur nya. Dari mulut A ke mulut B sampai ke telinga sendiri dari mulut K. Tak ke jauh.


Tapi kalau dah nampak dengan mata kepala sendiri, pandai2 lah.


Sebab tu tak boleh nak judge orang kalau tak tahu cerita disebaliknya.


Sebab tu selama ni aku hadap je orang kata aku macam macam.



"Kau ego tinggi doh dy". Ye ego aku tinggi.

"Kau ni keras kepala la". Ye kepala aku memang keras kalau lembik tak tahu mcm mana bentuk kepala aku.

"Kau ni macam ni la..macam tu laa". Ye aku macam ni, aku macam tu.



Tak boleh nak salah kan orang yang bercakap tu sebab diorang judge from what they see or hear. People judge. Tu kena tahu. Tak boleh nak melenting bila orang cakap macam tu.

Tapi kali ni kau dah tengok depan mata sendiri, aku takde nak memburuk burukkan orang. Kau dah nampak sendiri. Sekarang ni terpulang kau lah nak tengok aku as the bad guy or not.

Aku tak sampaikan cerita, aku tak mereka cerita.


Tapi cerita ni happen depan mata kau.


Terpulang kau nak percaya mata sendiri atau telinga.


Aku tak membuktikan aku betul, cuma jangan letak salah tu seratus peratus atas aku.


Bukan sekali dua aku kena macam ni. Kadang2 perasaan tu dah kebas. kata orang putih, numb.


Kalau boleh buka kan mata orang lain cerita sebenar.


Kalau boleh, aku taknak lah terima private message kata aku macam macam.

Siapa taknak back up member. Tapi kalau nak back up membuta tuli dengar cerita dari mulut orang lain ke apa tak boleh jugak. Kalau member sendiri memang dah salah, kau nak back up bagi menang, berdosa tahu. Menegak kan benda yang salah.


Jangan bercakap benda yang kosong. Cerita yang aku tulis ni, berisi.


Aku ni memang jenis dominan. Nak buat macam mana. Be it other's people fault, I'm the one who they see guilty.


Kalau jalan berdua dengan perempuan lain, orang ingat aku gay. dalam erti kata lain sejenis.


Mulut orang kita tak boleh nak tutup. Asalkan diri sendiri tahu macam mana, kisah apa orang lain cakap.


Kalau side aku macam ni orang dah cakap ego tinggi, keras kepala, degil, ketegaq ke apa,

You havent see my true colour yet, bro.


Ikutkan statistic aku dah lower the level apa yang orang cakap aku selama ni sebanyak 73 peratus.


Tahukah anda perangai aku yang sebenarnya telah menyebabkan perpecahan yang besar berlaku dalam hidup aku?

Takde undo button.


p/s: Untuk pengetahuan, aku dah menjangkau umur 20-an. Bukan dua belas. bukan dua.
      Beragak lah nak menipu ke apa, aku bukan otak kecil.

MIND OVER MATTER

"I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all"

Ingat seronok ke jadi robot?

Bila tengok orang lain rasa bahagia dari dalam hati, tapi kau bahagia sebab kau save perasaan tu dalam kepala. 

Ingat seronok ke jadi robot?

Bila tengok orang lain menangis sebab dia rasa sedih, tapi kau menangis sebab kau save dalam kepala bila sedih harus menangis.

Ingat seronok ke jadi robot?

Bila tengok orang lain penat sebab perasaan dia, tapi kau penat sebab tak boleh nak merasa.

Ingat seronok ke jadi robot?

Semua perasaan kau simpan dalam kepala. Bila bahagia kau harus senyum. Bila lawak kau mesti gelak. Bila sedih kau kena nangis. 

Ingat seronok ke jadi robot?

Bila tengok orang lain broken hearted, jujur rasa sakit dari dalam hati tapi kau sakit hati sebab otak kau cakap kau perlu rasa macam tu. sebab tu common sense. mana ada orang broken heart tapi tak rasa apa2. Kau cuba adapt situation so that you at least look like a human. 

Ingat seronok ke jadi robot?

Bila tengok orang lain rasa ikhlas datang dari hati tapi kau datang dari otak sendiri. 

Tapi jadi robot seronok juga. 

Sebab kau tak rasa penat. Kalau kau benci orang, benda tu tak effect kau pun. Kalau kau dendam dengan orang, benda tu tak exhaust kau pun. Sebab semua benda tu kau simpan dalam kepala. Once kau dah benci atau dendam, kau tak perlu nak ingatkan pada diri kau yang kau benci atau dendam dengan orang. sebab kau dah cop muka orang ni yang kau benci atau dendam dengan dia.

Tapi kena ingat, 

Robot bukan manusia.

Manusia bukan robot.

Crazy day crazy thing crazy night #1

Pijak lantai berpasir. tengok bawah pasu kaktus dah jatuh tanah hitam bersepah. Tapi apa aku buat? Hanya mampu tengok lepas tu buat bodoh. Tak guna.



I cant even take care of my cactus and also fishes.


How come do I expect to take care about others, I cant even take care of myself. Ehh I do. I just can take care of myself because i dont really care about me. Heh


Got starbucks and sushi with ainaa and ain really made my day after having tiring day working at our garage sale booth. The exhausted-ness flew away the moment we step into the car with drinks on our hands. But by the time I see my bed at room I just cant resist. I cant say no to my bed so I cuddle with my comfort blankie and fall asleep. Also I missed the theater. *not that I really wanna see it anyway but still*


And last night? We're having a bad crazy day at first. And we started to feel alot better after going out just the two of us, me and farah *my roommie* took her to mcd to have breakfast at 5 and all the coffee talk whatever teach her how to drive also chilling out at side of the highway, about to take picture suddenly phone battery went low so no awesome pictures to show hahaha.


I know deep down she needed this. I even brought tissue to the park where she hang out by herself. You better appreciate me rommie cse there's one and only eddy in this whole wide world hahahahaha kbai



p/s: sometimes you just have to listen. Its nice to actually know that someone's there for you.


     I'm having a really bad day so i cant even remember which story came first so I kinda mixed up so
     just bare with me. Just so you know all of the above happened in one day one night but thanks to
     my awesome self and friends who made me feel alot bettahh.



iknewyouweretrouble#np

Quote Of The Day #1

" If you knew that you were going to lose your leg tomorrow, would you sit on the couch and cry about it or would you run and jump and do some awesome air kick while you still could." - HIMYM



mirror#nowplaying

asdfgkhasdhkn

If it is something you dont like

of course you dont want it.

right?

or is it just me?

i mean I want Mocha

and of course Latte wont do

because if I want Latte, I'll say Latte.

Gahhhhhhh

of course I'm trying to be nice

because I do respect.

Cant put up with me?

I dont remember asking you to stay.

I've been meaning to walk you to the door

but I'm not that nice.

You know where the door is.

They say love grows.

But hate grows deeper.

If you know what I mean.

Just a cup of coffee #1

Have you ever feel so mad and you just sit alone,  have some quality time with yourself thinking, while listening to song that could bring you back into some sense and then you realized, how silly you're acting, throwing tantrums where one easy thing could fix the situation.


This happened to me last night. Three something in the morning to be exact.


I realized that I made some crappy posts before, you know trying to to express my feeling which is good but not in a good way. You know you gotta talk to someone who you've been meaning to talk to instead of keeping it to yourself. Maybe writing it down would help but not 100% effective.

So, it got me thinking, why not start afresh?

Maybe I'm wrong. or maybe I'm not. But thats not the point.

In relationship, you have to give and take to make it work.

Obviously, you cant always win. and you cant be the one who always give in either.

and it gets back to give and take method.



"I guess sometimes you just have to set your ego aside. And remember at the love that you have for that other person is way more important than winning " - HIMYM SE5EP6


They say, fights in a relationship are healthy. But if you keep fighting all the time, it could be worst. You may fight because the other person do something wrong so you just have to talk about it so they wont do it again next time. Or you could sit back and think again why did they do it anyway.


Stop blaming and finger pointing. Instead, take it positively and learn from it.

And this doesnt just for relationship, but also friendship. We talk random and general here.


Knowing myself, I shouldnt write this post as in i'm good enough or well experienced to give relationship advice. Or maybe its nauseating for you to read this, but somehow you'll get there. and everything on the above does make sense.



p/s: This might sounds weird but to those who find drinking coffee and listening to song could talk some sense into you, then you're not alone. I'm here bro. I do feel so. 


#listeningtoFlyFm

That.....

Hopeless.

I feel hopeless.

You know you cant win the fight but still you dont wanna lose but you cant do anything about it.

It may sounds like you're giving up. But it isnt.

It just that you know where you are and not wasting your time fighting for something that isnt worth it.


No matter how hard I fight, no matter what I say, in the end I still lose. I may have point but its not right enough to make me win. I dont have alibi.

Maybe I happen to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. Maybe.

I may have not the chance now, but I will some other time. I know.

If we ever meet again, i'll make this right.



p/s: its not that I dont care, I still do. It just that no matter how hard I try, no one sees. and for now I shall stop being your burden. 


beautifulhangover#nowplaying

You know?

That feeling when you're supposed to feel something but you cant. not because you're heartless or cannot feel anything but it just that you shouldn't feel that way because people judge.


For example, you refuse to eat something because it doesnt taste good but you cant say anything but to eat it because people will say that you're picky.


Get what it means?


Or you got a cut, just a small cut but it hurts because its deep, but you cant brag about it because people will say that you're weak cse all they see it just a small cut but they cant see how deep it is.


See?



p/s: You know, sometimes you cant tell someone everything because some people judge, some people jump into conclusion, some people being on sides, some people dont even care, and the worst some people cant keep it. But for all I know, I'm glad that I have someone that understand. 



Enough said.



#skypingwithlynn♥

A reminder

 p/s: for myself as well. 



finallyfoundyou#nowplaying

FOREIGN LANGUAGE :)

Learning foreign language is beneficial. and fun!

p/s: been working on my korean. wish I can make an entry in Hangul soon! 

13/04/30

Baru rasa macam semalam kau cerita kat aku life matrik kau. Kau tak tau macam mana nak survive another one year without familiar faces around. It sure a hell of rough road but you've made it. and so, i'm very proud of you my friend :)

CONGRATULATIONS!

back then in school, who knows that we had a stalker. and i miss my stalker very much :|

upintheair#nowplaying

Bro-sick

Normally, when hostel students going back on holiday they're looking forward to spend time with their family. So do I.

But mine is bit different cse not all my family members are living under the same roof. My sister is now currently in Kedah, still studying and even on holidays we're not meeting each other cse she's living with my mom. And I stay with my dad, as well as my younger brother and sister.

And talking about brother, he's the one I look forward to meet the most during holidays. One of the major reason is because he's the one and only brother I ever had in the world and he understand me the most. We fight alot, cursed each other and throwing stuffs. But he's also the one who take me out for dinner and buy me sanitary pad when I'm not able to move from bed. I sometimes borrow his money when I'm broke and I lend him some when he need.

But brother-sister's relationship isnt beautiful all time. Of course there's some people who always nice with their siblings and saying I Miss You to them isnt a problem. But for me, I cant simply text or call him and say I miss you. Thats not how I show my affection to my brother or sisters. or anyone. In fact, I never say I Love You or I Miss You to my brother.

To me, if I let my brother borrow my things such as laptop to play games, that means love. Of course it is. We share room *its bunk beds*.  We share shorts. We share shirts. We share alot of things.

But as the time flies, we grow up. Whenever I went back home for holiday, he's not always around. He got school and friends. He has social life. He always go out and only come back at night. We dont spend much time together and it has been months since I last met him.


p/s: I'm writing this entry because I saw your pictures on facebook. You're really grown up. I dont spend much time with you cse i was in boarding school before and living in hostel till now. Though I'm not always there when you're growing up but I hope you'll be a better man. Though I know you wont read this but still I cant say those words I've been wanting to say. Let say sharing stuffs would have the same meaning, I'd say I'm sharing stuff with you. Have a good life my bro :)

thislove#nowplaying

Have you ever feel like people seeing you as the bad guy though you did nothing wrong and its completely someone else's fault?

This kinda remind me of memories in highschool, being around with friends, sure we fight alot. But mostly I didnt remember started it. My friend did. I act normal cse nothing really happen but as soon as I walk into the classes the desk parted, and they sit quite in distance with me. And I took it as nothing's wrong and went back to dorm and see the bed arrangement in distance and half of the room didnt talk to me. Did I do something wrong with you guys? NO. Actually there's just one person who misunderstood me and I dont know how the person do it, manage to soak people's mind with making up stories and stuff but really I dont care. One day when I couldnt hold it back, I burst out my anger which I hold for quite a long time, just go on living a normal life like I always did with the rumors spreading like fire all around and my frenemies seems to be alot more than my real friends for about 2 to 3 months plus. I did not do anything harsh I just scream my lungs out and that person end up crying outside. And that 15 seconds of screaming makes me the bad guy in the situation who did nothing but scream. and *curse*.  Afterall, we're all okay. Because we're friends. 

Friends might fight, but that doesnt mean we hate. That just means we love each other more. If I ever hate you, I didnt even consider you as friend at first. 

The point I'm trying to say here is, though its not my fault and I barely know what's wrong going on around me and a person, in the end i always look like the bad guy. And if you're about to start a cold war/fight with me, bring no one but yourself and face me. If you think going around and making up stories about me will make you look innocent, you're wrong. You just successfully make yourself look pathetic. you know why? because you dont have the guts to stand for yourself that you have to recruit a troop for backing you up. Sad life bitch. That makes you weaker cse you yourself already weak. 

p/s: If I ever hate someone, I'll tell them why I hate them so much that they'll hate themselves too. You dont wanna be the person who brave enough to start a fight but end up crying at the corridor. I might be patient, but I'm not patient enough. And you can keep talking behind my back, because its exactly where you belong.

LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY #2

Hello guys! So last night was a hell lot of fun and i'm looking forward to meet them again!


1) Ache Brazil Capoeira's street roda at Teluk Chempedak (TC)!!!!!

2) Meet Gen and other caporista. Sadly I didnt join in the roda, I just stand back and clap. I missed too much practice and I dont think I'm good enough to do it publicly.

3) Then we lepak at this stall and drink. This one guy which I dont quite remember his name, playing the snow spray. He spray it on his palm and set them on fire. IT WAS EPIC! Gen recorded the video and I shall upload it later because it was hillarious oh mai god seriously you guys should watch it. Haha but the video is not wimme now but will soon. so wait for it!

4) Gen wore my nails polish that I brought along and I swear it looks good on her. She played her ukulele and sing When I Was Your Man and damn it was good! Her voice is great. She did teach me how to play but my fingers couldnt catch up. I guess I have to practice more.

5) Me and Gen has a lot in common. we BOTH FANCY BACKPACK! Hers is super cute strawberry backpack. One thing about small backpack, it might looks small, but it could carry more that you think it can. I think I'm gonna make an entry about my backpack :DD

6) I save the best for the last so I shall now announce the ultimate moment that happened last night that makes me super duper beyond cloud nine of happiness (wasnt sure if my metaphor is right but whatev) i'm overly excited because it was my first time so I'm bit overwhelmed but I couldnt believe it that I admit publicly that he's my boyfriend. Usually I dont go public, but this time among the caporista, it feels like family.

7) Today supposed to be the start of i'm-all-alone-stuck-up-here-while-everybody-else-going-back-for-holiday-but-i'm-so-lazy-to-go-home-this-weekend-so-blame-me parade, but still the small things does makes me happy. I sent him to the the bus stop and trying to put a i'm-cool-i-can-take-care-of-myself-dont-you-worry-i'm-fine face cse i cant afford to let people know my i-gonna-miss-you-but-i-wont-admit-it-for-sure look. I wrote him a letter and he wrote one for me too. Its beeeeeeeennnn a while since the last letter he gave me that I didnt reply because apparently I forgot. sorry. so the letter is super cute because it says "do not open until i'm gone". hihi



p/s: Life's too short to be unhappy. Have you ever take a look of yourself in the mirror, and see the wrinkles on your face? uh-huh not cute. Live your life. Dont think. Just do. #HIMYM. btw I think I'm gonna make a review on some movie I've watched. Stay tuned!


wheniwasyourman#nowplaying

Macam macam

There's one time, masa aku period pain yang teramat sangat sampai berpeluh peluh tak boleh tido and pain killer pun dah hbs so aku ajak dia pegi seven-e. On our way he was driving so fast and I was like "weh rilek ahh, asal bawak laju? aku sakit perut je pun. bukan nya nak bersalin". Then I burst into laughing. He did too. He's afraid that I couldnt bear the pain so dia bawak laju so that cepat sampai dapat beli ubat and kurangkan sakit.

To be honest, I feel so blessed having him in my life. Seeing his worried and concern face could blew the pain away. well not literally but it could ease the pain at least. However, we shouldnt neglect our safety and put it behind. Safety first. Memang lah emergency, tapi keselamatan lagi penting. Nanti tak pasal2 from sakit senggugut yang boleh heal dalam sejam dua lepas makan ubat jadi lebih teruk. 

p/s: Its the little things that count. Though he just bought me painkillers and mineral water, but he did taking care of me. Thank you :) Is there someone else who did the same to you? Well, appreciate!

Awkward#nowplaying

LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY #1

1) Had tea break with love. We ate ice cream. Not literally together cse after I finish eating then only he showed up. However we still had a very good time.


2) We draw  fake ring on our finger and took bunch of pictures and change our twitcon immediately.


3) We had this deeper conversation about favorite color, how do we sleep at night, and favorite ice cream. Surprisingly we both fancy MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP! Yeay :D


4) Got blessing, approval, support from my bestfriends! :)


p/s: spending some quality time with your love one doesnt necessarily mean going out on a date or dinner at fancy restaurant. just a little tea break would do. though it sounds small but those little things count. Effort :)

                                

                 my annoying supplement ;)            and                  my annoying self --'

timeaftertime#nowplaying

The time has come

L'heure Avait Sonnê

C'est fou ce qu'on peut être con

L'amour rend parfois trop con

Parfois trop...

On chasse ce qu'il y a de pire

Pour croire et pour s'épanouir

Parfois trop...

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

J'ai lesé tous les bonheurs, pendant ce temps-là tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

Moi je t'attendais dehors, pendant ce temps tu m'oubliais

A ta porte je me revois

Les fleurs à la main, je l'aperçois

Une autre que moi

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

J'ai lesé tous les bonheurs, pendant ce temps-là tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

Moi je t'attendais dehors, pendant ce temps tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

J'ai lesé tous les bonheurs, pendant ce temps-là tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

Moi je t'attendais dehors, pendant ce temps tu m'oubliais.....

p/s: check this song out. sometimes its good to listen to new songs. new genre. start afresh.

Enjoy!

and if you have any songs that you would like to share, dont hesitate to suggest!

LITTLETHINGS  #NOWPLAYING

HOPE

I thought you'd be different.

Well, it just a thought.

Takut VS Benci

Takut dan benci

dua perkara berbeza.

Contoh takut lipas

means kalau ada lipas

kau takut

Benci lipas

nak dengar nama pun tak suka

binatang tu lg lah

Jangan buat orang benci

benci kat kau

nanti bila org sebut nama kau

ada yang menyampah

tak nak dengar

kalau dah benci

jangan kan nama

 tempat kau jejak pun

tak ingin nak lalu

kalau tak nak dibenci

hormat.

p/s: Hatred is such a strong emotion. Dont make people hate you.

thriftshop #nowplaying

Name it yourself

I'm not the love guru type of person who deserved to write this post but on behalf of my friend who just not so recently got out from a relationship but the "ship" they're having is quite complicated that I have to console my friend and i think this post made sense just to help if anyone out there having the same issues/whatever that might related.

okay that makes quite an introduction. 

Back to topic. 

A very good friend of mine had this relationship with this guy and I'm beyond happy for her cse she's finally have someone to look after her but things didnt go so well between them that I wanna see her happy but if she didnt I cant do much. So I said I'll support her whatever decision she made which she regret it now. I'm kinda of guilty. She dumped him.

and now that guy is having a relationship with another girl (which is completely fine they even put it on facebook) and that my dear friend having a heartbreak. 

That guy must have been sending mixed/wrong signals to my friend, cse they're still texting and wake each other up for subuh prayer (which is really sweet) but then here goes the breaking news.

She dumped him. (okay i mentioned that twice)

which made sense to me if that guy wanna revenge or making her into him again and suddenly having relationship with another women. 

Before their break up, she said to me that she has no feeling for this guy which now I think thats a bull. That was her first real relationship and of course she's a lil bit scared to open up cse she didnt know if its real or not.

I do understand that. Really. Cse i'm living it now. 

But people appreciate something when its gone.

Now that he's gone (i mean in relationship with someone) and she feels like she can never win this guy again cse he's with someone else. and the fact that guy was over her when she just realized how real her feeling for this guy contributes to heartbreak she's having.

I cant talk much cse its no one's fault. Okay maybe that guy sent wrong signals and my friend took it seriously. But at the first place he got dumped. and he's hurt. His ego was hurt. Do you know how much that hurts? Very much.

and you cant really blame him on what he did to you (i mean my friend). 

I kinda lost my dearest once and I cant barely live for that temporary moment and when I had the second chance to have him back, I didnt waste it. And who knows that I appreciate him more than I did before. 

I hope that will teach her not to let the chance she has wasted, instead appreciate it like there's no second chance. 

p/s: Mistakes are mistakes if you repeat them.

theonlyexception #nowplaying

Have you?

Have you ever laid on your bed at night, and just cried? Cried because you're ugly. Because you're not good enough. You counted all your flaws from head to toe, to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because the comments people blurt out, actually hurt your feelings. Cried because your family is dysfunctional. You don't want to be a burden, so you bottled it all up. Around people, you're the happiest ray of sun shine. But nobody knows, that at night when you're alone, you break down and just cry.

:l

I took this from your blog. I get how you feel. I really do. I feel the same. I did cry at night. Cuddling in my blankie and cry. Silence cry hurts. we wanna cry but we cant make it obvious cse we dont want people to know that we cry. The fact that the tears drop breaks my ego so yeah. 

R; 

aku rindu kau.

teramat.

withme #nowplaying

good old times :')

We used to be that kid who didnt care what people said about how we look, how we took pictures, but that was when we were just kids. 

How I miss being a silly kid acting all stupid not gonna change the fact that i'm growing up.

Life goes on. People grow.

withyou #nowplaying

Why Cactus?

Hello there hungry readerssss (lol bajet).


Since i bought cactuses and took care of them, I've been flooded with questions "why cactus?", "why not other flowers?" and bla bla bla...

Honestly, sometimes I asked myself, why did i chose cactus? and why did i decide to plant something? why did i turned to mother nature kind of stuff? why so sudden? hmmm..

First of all, honestly i kind of making the biggest mistake in my life on some date (cant remember when) so i sort of depressed and moody and all sort of emotional feelings. and i decided to start from bottom, start fresh, start all over again, and i chose to start with nature.

taking care of plants is not as easy as you think. its not just watering the plants and thats all. it takes more than you think. watering the plant and provide them sunlight is a must. but all those little things that you do toward them counts. you gotta change the pot in order for the plant to grow, sometimes you gotta give them fertilizers, cleaning the soil, change the soil, and stuff.

my friend once asked me why cactus? they're ugly. and know what my answer is? because you have the eyes that judged something from the outside that blinded you from seeing the beauty inside. and the words that slipped out of my mouth kind of satisfying for me at least. and he did suggest to plan orchid because its beautiful and bla bla bla.

i know flowers are beautiful. so does cactus. We have different opinions, the way we see something. I see life from different perspective. some people might find the prickles on the cactus are ugly and painful, and why is that? have you ever take a closer look at them?

if you hold them gently, it wont hurts you. if you go rough, then feel the pain of the prickles. it just like how you treat them. if you do good, they're being good. and vice versa.

and one more thing, taking care of cactus is easier than taking care of other plants or flower. cse you only need to water them once a week and change the soil once in a month and they dont need fertilizers. Mostly other plants, if you didnt water them for few days they're gonna wilt. but not cactus. they stored water inside their body.

and its like they can take care of themselves. throw them on the dessert, they still can survive. they'll find the way. their spirit sometimes weirdly inspired me. the desire to live. and one of my cactus fell on the ground from fourth floor which is my room. I found it the next day, on the side walk. and has been stepped upon and it was raining a night before and the soil also gone, only left it with few roots.

when i picked it off of the ground, i touched the soft spot which was broken. but it seems fine on the outside but its not in the inside. you know what i mean? and that evening i immediately change the pot and the soil, trying my best to save it's life and now i'm just hoping that it will keep living.

did you see that? its broken. but look at it now, it's living. 

p/s: in life, do not lose hope. we might think our life has come to an end but in fact, it has just begun.

littlethings #nowplaying

problems is how you see them.

Everyone has their own problem. Its whether they show it or not. Level of difficulties of one's problem is determined by ourselves. Sometimes, bila kita ada masalah kita mesti fikir ni lah masalah or dugaan yang besar pada kita. Tapi sebenarnya ada yang lagi menderita dan sedang mengalami masalah yang lebih berganda daripada kita. 

For example, we always heard news pasal budak perempuan yang bunuh diri sebab mempnyai masalah dalam percintaan, contohnya baru lepas break up dengan boyfriend. kebiasaan nya yang mendengar atau membaca cerita pasal benda ni mesti akan cakap "eleh, sebab putus cinta je nak bunuh diri? bodoh. Orang lain tak rasa apa yang dia rasa so tak patut cakap macam tu sebab one day bila diri sendiri terkena macam ni, baru lah tahu apa rasanya. Bukan nak menggalakkan ke apa, tapi respect lah masalah orang lain. bukan tahu mengkritik je.

For some people, sesuatu benda tu mungkin bukan masalah bagi dia, tapi masalah bagi orang lain. contohnya, si A down sebab result exam dia teruk. and si B ni pulak boleh cakap "rileklah result aku lagi teruk dari kau kot". Mungkin bagi A result teruk ni satu masalah bagi dia, dan bagi B pulak bukan. so B sepatutnya diam, bukan membandingkan result siapa lagi teruk. Kalau benda tu bukan masalah kepada diri sendiri, senyap dah lah. Ianya mungkin masalah kepada orang lain. 

Kadang kadang bila ada masalah, aku selalu pikir ada orang lain yang lagi besar masalah dia daripada aku. *actually nak sedapkan hati je* tapi ade betulnya jugak

Ada banyak lagi situation masalah yang berlaku dalam kehidupan seharian. Terpulang kepada individu sendiri macam mana dia nak define masalah yang dia hadapi. Tapi apa pun yang kita hadapi, running away is not the best solution. In fact, it does not solves any problem. Setiap masalah ada penyelesaiannya. Jadi bersabarlah dan jangan berputus asa :) FIGHTING!

FEW HEADS UP

hello guys out there. its been a while since my last post. not gonna make excuses such i'm busy, i have no time, i have nothing to write bla bla bla.. the truth is i'm not consistent. i got distracted easily and most of the time i'm being lazy. so here goes the few heads up :

i) i'm in fourth semester which suppose to be my last semester but I extend my final year project so i have another semester.

ii) i bought two cactus, one is for me and one for my friend but for the time being i took care of both but recently my friend's cactus was broken as it fell from fourth floor(my room).

iii) SUKFAC(sukan fakulti) is just around the corner so i have training everynight 8-10  (usually i came at 8.30 *earliest* and 9.15 *latest*) and after that i went to dinner and for sure i'm exhausted then i go to sleep and sometimes i skip classes. *shhhhhh*

iv) my faculty dinner is next week (friday) and up till today i havent decide what to wear yet and the theme is masquerade and if you have any idea or suggestion pls inform me i need to decide by weekends!

and i think thats all for now cse i have two to three entry to be made but under different title so i'm gonna end this now so that i have more time to write new one. and btw i have another blog which will be general about life and stuff, nothing personal like this one. okay i'm crapping. bye.