Crazy day crazy thing crazy night #1

Pijak lantai berpasir. tengok bawah pasu kaktus dah jatuh tanah hitam bersepah. Tapi apa aku buat? Hanya mampu tengok lepas tu buat bodoh. Tak guna.



I cant even take care of my cactus and also fishes.


How come do I expect to take care about others, I cant even take care of myself. Ehh I do. I just can take care of myself because i dont really care about me. Heh


Got starbucks and sushi with ainaa and ain really made my day after having tiring day working at our garage sale booth. The exhausted-ness flew away the moment we step into the car with drinks on our hands. But by the time I see my bed at room I just cant resist. I cant say no to my bed so I cuddle with my comfort blankie and fall asleep. Also I missed the theater. *not that I really wanna see it anyway but still*


And last night? We're having a bad crazy day at first. And we started to feel alot better after going out just the two of us, me and farah *my roommie* took her to mcd to have breakfast at 5 and all the coffee talk whatever teach her how to drive also chilling out at side of the highway, about to take picture suddenly phone battery went low so no awesome pictures to show hahaha.


I know deep down she needed this. I even brought tissue to the park where she hang out by herself. You better appreciate me rommie cse there's one and only eddy in this whole wide world hahahahaha kbai



p/s: sometimes you just have to listen. Its nice to actually know that someone's there for you.


     I'm having a really bad day so i cant even remember which story came first so I kinda mixed up so
     just bare with me. Just so you know all of the above happened in one day one night but thanks to
     my awesome self and friends who made me feel alot bettahh.



iknewyouweretrouble#np

You know?

That feeling when you're supposed to feel something but you cant. not because you're heartless or cannot feel anything but it just that you shouldn't feel that way because people judge.


For example, you refuse to eat something because it doesnt taste good but you cant say anything but to eat it because people will say that you're picky.


Get what it means?


Or you got a cut, just a small cut but it hurts because its deep, but you cant brag about it because people will say that you're weak cse all they see it just a small cut but they cant see how deep it is.


See?



p/s: You know, sometimes you cant tell someone everything because some people judge, some people jump into conclusion, some people being on sides, some people dont even care, and the worst some people cant keep it. But for all I know, I'm glad that I have someone that understand. 



Enough said.



#skypingwithlynn♥

13/04/30

Baru rasa macam semalam kau cerita kat aku life matrik kau. Kau tak tau macam mana nak survive another one year without familiar faces around. It sure a hell of rough road but you've made it. and so, i'm very proud of you my friend :)

CONGRATULATIONS!

back then in school, who knows that we had a stalker. and i miss my stalker very much :|

upintheair#nowplaying

LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY #2

Hello guys! So last night was a hell lot of fun and i'm looking forward to meet them again!


1) Ache Brazil Capoeira's street roda at Teluk Chempedak (TC)!!!!!

2) Meet Gen and other caporista. Sadly I didnt join in the roda, I just stand back and clap. I missed too much practice and I dont think I'm good enough to do it publicly.

3) Then we lepak at this stall and drink. This one guy which I dont quite remember his name, playing the snow spray. He spray it on his palm and set them on fire. IT WAS EPIC! Gen recorded the video and I shall upload it later because it was hillarious oh mai god seriously you guys should watch it. Haha but the video is not wimme now but will soon. so wait for it!

4) Gen wore my nails polish that I brought along and I swear it looks good on her. She played her ukulele and sing When I Was Your Man and damn it was good! Her voice is great. She did teach me how to play but my fingers couldnt catch up. I guess I have to practice more.

5) Me and Gen has a lot in common. we BOTH FANCY BACKPACK! Hers is super cute strawberry backpack. One thing about small backpack, it might looks small, but it could carry more that you think it can. I think I'm gonna make an entry about my backpack :DD

6) I save the best for the last so I shall now announce the ultimate moment that happened last night that makes me super duper beyond cloud nine of happiness (wasnt sure if my metaphor is right but whatev) i'm overly excited because it was my first time so I'm bit overwhelmed but I couldnt believe it that I admit publicly that he's my boyfriend. Usually I dont go public, but this time among the caporista, it feels like family.

7) Today supposed to be the start of i'm-all-alone-stuck-up-here-while-everybody-else-going-back-for-holiday-but-i'm-so-lazy-to-go-home-this-weekend-so-blame-me parade, but still the small things does makes me happy. I sent him to the the bus stop and trying to put a i'm-cool-i-can-take-care-of-myself-dont-you-worry-i'm-fine face cse i cant afford to let people know my i-gonna-miss-you-but-i-wont-admit-it-for-sure look. I wrote him a letter and he wrote one for me too. Its beeeeeeeennnn a while since the last letter he gave me that I didnt reply because apparently I forgot. sorry. so the letter is super cute because it says "do not open until i'm gone". hihi



p/s: Life's too short to be unhappy. Have you ever take a look of yourself in the mirror, and see the wrinkles on your face? uh-huh not cute. Live your life. Dont think. Just do. #HIMYM. btw I think I'm gonna make a review on some movie I've watched. Stay tuned!


wheniwasyourman#nowplaying

Name it yourself

I'm not the love guru type of person who deserved to write this post but on behalf of my friend who just not so recently got out from a relationship but the "ship" they're having is quite complicated that I have to console my friend and i think this post made sense just to help if anyone out there having the same issues/whatever that might related.

okay that makes quite an introduction. 

Back to topic. 

A very good friend of mine had this relationship with this guy and I'm beyond happy for her cse she's finally have someone to look after her but things didnt go so well between them that I wanna see her happy but if she didnt I cant do much. So I said I'll support her whatever decision she made which she regret it now. I'm kinda of guilty. She dumped him.

and now that guy is having a relationship with another girl (which is completely fine they even put it on facebook) and that my dear friend having a heartbreak. 

That guy must have been sending mixed/wrong signals to my friend, cse they're still texting and wake each other up for subuh prayer (which is really sweet) but then here goes the breaking news.

She dumped him. (okay i mentioned that twice)

which made sense to me if that guy wanna revenge or making her into him again and suddenly having relationship with another women. 

Before their break up, she said to me that she has no feeling for this guy which now I think thats a bull. That was her first real relationship and of course she's a lil bit scared to open up cse she didnt know if its real or not.

I do understand that. Really. Cse i'm living it now. 

But people appreciate something when its gone.

Now that he's gone (i mean in relationship with someone) and she feels like she can never win this guy again cse he's with someone else. and the fact that guy was over her when she just realized how real her feeling for this guy contributes to heartbreak she's having.

I cant talk much cse its no one's fault. Okay maybe that guy sent wrong signals and my friend took it seriously. But at the first place he got dumped. and he's hurt. His ego was hurt. Do you know how much that hurts? Very much.

and you cant really blame him on what he did to you (i mean my friend). 

I kinda lost my dearest once and I cant barely live for that temporary moment and when I had the second chance to have him back, I didnt waste it. And who knows that I appreciate him more than I did before. 

I hope that will teach her not to let the chance she has wasted, instead appreciate it like there's no second chance. 

p/s: Mistakes are mistakes if you repeat them.

theonlyexception #nowplaying

Have you?

Have you ever laid on your bed at night, and just cried? Cried because you're ugly. Because you're not good enough. You counted all your flaws from head to toe, to punish and feel worse about yourself. Cried because the comments people blurt out, actually hurt your feelings. Cried because your family is dysfunctional. You don't want to be a burden, so you bottled it all up. Around people, you're the happiest ray of sun shine. But nobody knows, that at night when you're alone, you break down and just cry.

:l

I took this from your blog. I get how you feel. I really do. I feel the same. I did cry at night. Cuddling in my blankie and cry. Silence cry hurts. we wanna cry but we cant make it obvious cse we dont want people to know that we cry. The fact that the tears drop breaks my ego so yeah. 

R; 

aku rindu kau.

teramat.

withme #nowplaying

good old times :')

We used to be that kid who didnt care what people said about how we look, how we took pictures, but that was when we were just kids. 

How I miss being a silly kid acting all stupid not gonna change the fact that i'm growing up.

Life goes on. People grow.

withyou #nowplaying