Crazy day crazy thing crazy night #1

Pijak lantai berpasir. tengok bawah pasu kaktus dah jatuh tanah hitam bersepah. Tapi apa aku buat? Hanya mampu tengok lepas tu buat bodoh. Tak guna.



I cant even take care of my cactus and also fishes.


How come do I expect to take care about others, I cant even take care of myself. Ehh I do. I just can take care of myself because i dont really care about me. Heh


Got starbucks and sushi with ainaa and ain really made my day after having tiring day working at our garage sale booth. The exhausted-ness flew away the moment we step into the car with drinks on our hands. But by the time I see my bed at room I just cant resist. I cant say no to my bed so I cuddle with my comfort blankie and fall asleep. Also I missed the theater. *not that I really wanna see it anyway but still*


And last night? We're having a bad crazy day at first. And we started to feel alot better after going out just the two of us, me and farah *my roommie* took her to mcd to have breakfast at 5 and all the coffee talk whatever teach her how to drive also chilling out at side of the highway, about to take picture suddenly phone battery went low so no awesome pictures to show hahaha.


I know deep down she needed this. I even brought tissue to the park where she hang out by herself. You better appreciate me rommie cse there's one and only eddy in this whole wide world hahahahaha kbai



p/s: sometimes you just have to listen. Its nice to actually know that someone's there for you.


     I'm having a really bad day so i cant even remember which story came first so I kinda mixed up so
     just bare with me. Just so you know all of the above happened in one day one night but thanks to
     my awesome self and friends who made me feel alot bettahh.



iknewyouweretrouble#np

13/04/30

Baru rasa macam semalam kau cerita kat aku life matrik kau. Kau tak tau macam mana nak survive another one year without familiar faces around. It sure a hell of rough road but you've made it. and so, i'm very proud of you my friend :)

CONGRATULATIONS!

back then in school, who knows that we had a stalker. and i miss my stalker very much :|

upintheair#nowplaying

Bro-sick

Normally, when hostel students going back on holiday they're looking forward to spend time with their family. So do I.

But mine is bit different cse not all my family members are living under the same roof. My sister is now currently in Kedah, still studying and even on holidays we're not meeting each other cse she's living with my mom. And I stay with my dad, as well as my younger brother and sister.

And talking about brother, he's the one I look forward to meet the most during holidays. One of the major reason is because he's the one and only brother I ever had in the world and he understand me the most. We fight alot, cursed each other and throwing stuffs. But he's also the one who take me out for dinner and buy me sanitary pad when I'm not able to move from bed. I sometimes borrow his money when I'm broke and I lend him some when he need.

But brother-sister's relationship isnt beautiful all time. Of course there's some people who always nice with their siblings and saying I Miss You to them isnt a problem. But for me, I cant simply text or call him and say I miss you. Thats not how I show my affection to my brother or sisters. or anyone. In fact, I never say I Love You or I Miss You to my brother.

To me, if I let my brother borrow my things such as laptop to play games, that means love. Of course it is. We share room *its bunk beds*.  We share shorts. We share shirts. We share alot of things.

But as the time flies, we grow up. Whenever I went back home for holiday, he's not always around. He got school and friends. He has social life. He always go out and only come back at night. We dont spend much time together and it has been months since I last met him.


p/s: I'm writing this entry because I saw your pictures on facebook. You're really grown up. I dont spend much time with you cse i was in boarding school before and living in hostel till now. Though I'm not always there when you're growing up but I hope you'll be a better man. Though I know you wont read this but still I cant say those words I've been wanting to say. Let say sharing stuffs would have the same meaning, I'd say I'm sharing stuff with you. Have a good life my bro :)

thislove#nowplaying

Have you ever feel like people seeing you as the bad guy though you did nothing wrong and its completely someone else's fault?

This kinda remind me of memories in highschool, being around with friends, sure we fight alot. But mostly I didnt remember started it. My friend did. I act normal cse nothing really happen but as soon as I walk into the classes the desk parted, and they sit quite in distance with me. And I took it as nothing's wrong and went back to dorm and see the bed arrangement in distance and half of the room didnt talk to me. Did I do something wrong with you guys? NO. Actually there's just one person who misunderstood me and I dont know how the person do it, manage to soak people's mind with making up stories and stuff but really I dont care. One day when I couldnt hold it back, I burst out my anger which I hold for quite a long time, just go on living a normal life like I always did with the rumors spreading like fire all around and my frenemies seems to be alot more than my real friends for about 2 to 3 months plus. I did not do anything harsh I just scream my lungs out and that person end up crying outside. And that 15 seconds of screaming makes me the bad guy in the situation who did nothing but scream. and *curse*.  Afterall, we're all okay. Because we're friends. 

Friends might fight, but that doesnt mean we hate. That just means we love each other more. If I ever hate you, I didnt even consider you as friend at first. 

The point I'm trying to say here is, though its not my fault and I barely know what's wrong going on around me and a person, in the end i always look like the bad guy. And if you're about to start a cold war/fight with me, bring no one but yourself and face me. If you think going around and making up stories about me will make you look innocent, you're wrong. You just successfully make yourself look pathetic. you know why? because you dont have the guts to stand for yourself that you have to recruit a troop for backing you up. Sad life bitch. That makes you weaker cse you yourself already weak. 

p/s: If I ever hate someone, I'll tell them why I hate them so much that they'll hate themselves too. You dont wanna be the person who brave enough to start a fight but end up crying at the corridor. I might be patient, but I'm not patient enough. And you can keep talking behind my back, because its exactly where you belong.

LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY #2

Hello guys! So last night was a hell lot of fun and i'm looking forward to meet them again!


1) Ache Brazil Capoeira's street roda at Teluk Chempedak (TC)!!!!!

2) Meet Gen and other caporista. Sadly I didnt join in the roda, I just stand back and clap. I missed too much practice and I dont think I'm good enough to do it publicly.

3) Then we lepak at this stall and drink. This one guy which I dont quite remember his name, playing the snow spray. He spray it on his palm and set them on fire. IT WAS EPIC! Gen recorded the video and I shall upload it later because it was hillarious oh mai god seriously you guys should watch it. Haha but the video is not wimme now but will soon. so wait for it!

4) Gen wore my nails polish that I brought along and I swear it looks good on her. She played her ukulele and sing When I Was Your Man and damn it was good! Her voice is great. She did teach me how to play but my fingers couldnt catch up. I guess I have to practice more.

5) Me and Gen has a lot in common. we BOTH FANCY BACKPACK! Hers is super cute strawberry backpack. One thing about small backpack, it might looks small, but it could carry more that you think it can. I think I'm gonna make an entry about my backpack :DD

6) I save the best for the last so I shall now announce the ultimate moment that happened last night that makes me super duper beyond cloud nine of happiness (wasnt sure if my metaphor is right but whatev) i'm overly excited because it was my first time so I'm bit overwhelmed but I couldnt believe it that I admit publicly that he's my boyfriend. Usually I dont go public, but this time among the caporista, it feels like family.

7) Today supposed to be the start of i'm-all-alone-stuck-up-here-while-everybody-else-going-back-for-holiday-but-i'm-so-lazy-to-go-home-this-weekend-so-blame-me parade, but still the small things does makes me happy. I sent him to the the bus stop and trying to put a i'm-cool-i-can-take-care-of-myself-dont-you-worry-i'm-fine face cse i cant afford to let people know my i-gonna-miss-you-but-i-wont-admit-it-for-sure look. I wrote him a letter and he wrote one for me too. Its beeeeeeeennnn a while since the last letter he gave me that I didnt reply because apparently I forgot. sorry. so the letter is super cute because it says "do not open until i'm gone". hihi



p/s: Life's too short to be unhappy. Have you ever take a look of yourself in the mirror, and see the wrinkles on your face? uh-huh not cute. Live your life. Dont think. Just do. #HIMYM. btw I think I'm gonna make a review on some movie I've watched. Stay tuned!


wheniwasyourman#nowplaying

Macam macam

There's one time, masa aku period pain yang teramat sangat sampai berpeluh peluh tak boleh tido and pain killer pun dah hbs so aku ajak dia pegi seven-e. On our way he was driving so fast and I was like "weh rilek ahh, asal bawak laju? aku sakit perut je pun. bukan nya nak bersalin". Then I burst into laughing. He did too. He's afraid that I couldnt bear the pain so dia bawak laju so that cepat sampai dapat beli ubat and kurangkan sakit.

To be honest, I feel so blessed having him in my life. Seeing his worried and concern face could blew the pain away. well not literally but it could ease the pain at least. However, we shouldnt neglect our safety and put it behind. Safety first. Memang lah emergency, tapi keselamatan lagi penting. Nanti tak pasal2 from sakit senggugut yang boleh heal dalam sejam dua lepas makan ubat jadi lebih teruk. 

p/s: Its the little things that count. Though he just bought me painkillers and mineral water, but he did taking care of me. Thank you :) Is there someone else who did the same to you? Well, appreciate!

Awkward#nowplaying

The time has come

L'heure Avait Sonnê

C'est fou ce qu'on peut être con

L'amour rend parfois trop con

Parfois trop...

On chasse ce qu'il y a de pire

Pour croire et pour s'épanouir

Parfois trop...

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

J'ai lesé tous les bonheurs, pendant ce temps-là tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

Moi je t'attendais dehors, pendant ce temps tu m'oubliais

A ta porte je me revois

Les fleurs à la main, je l'aperçois

Une autre que moi

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

J'ai lesé tous les bonheurs, pendant ce temps-là tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

Moi je t'attendais dehors, pendant ce temps tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

J'ai lesé tous les bonheurs, pendant ce temps-là tu m'oubliais

J'ai laissé sonner une heure pensant que mon heure avait sonné

Moi je t'attendais dehors, pendant ce temps tu m'oubliais.....

p/s: check this song out. sometimes its good to listen to new songs. new genre. start afresh.

Enjoy!

and if you have any songs that you would like to share, dont hesitate to suggest!

LITTLETHINGS  #NOWPLAYING

good old times :')

We used to be that kid who didnt care what people said about how we look, how we took pictures, but that was when we were just kids. 

How I miss being a silly kid acting all stupid not gonna change the fact that i'm growing up.

Life goes on. People grow.

withyou #nowplaying